Today I Feel Like Crap

Nuff' said.

Hate Me- Blue October

I really like this song. It makes me feel better.

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I LIVE IN DENIAL.

I can't see me for me. That's coz I'm me. Brilliant eh?

Just A Reminder To Self

So mark this well - God is not under an obligation to make you comfortable. Can you see the truth that is contained in the words of our text today? "Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?" Job 2:10 (NASB). You are ready to accept good, but are you just as ready to accept adversity? You see, God's goal is not our comfort, but our character.

I'm stupid and random.

I am extremely stupid and incapable of doing anything, but I have nothing to make up for it (ie, I'm not attractive, I am bad at sports and music, am a poor speaker, and I am horrible at social situations). Do not say that it doesnt matter because it does to me. I hate feeling inadequate, and having this overpowering feeling that I will NEVER achieve anything. I'm horrible at almost anything, and the things that I'm not absolutely horrible at, I'm simply average at.

Not that I put much faith in the validity of IQ tests, but if I were to take an IQ test, I bet my score would range from the late 80s to the early 90s, just slightly above the cutoff for mental retardation.

I am EXTREMELY stupid, I have no friends, and I will never achieve anything. I want to die so much because I have no purpose of living. There is no way that I could do well at anything job because I have poor fine and gross motor skills (so I would fail at highly technical trades or professions), and poor social skills (so I would fail at customer service jobs). The only job I might be capable of doing is working as a janitor.

I just wish I was at least average at more things. I HATE being so dumb. (I'm not looking for sympathy, I am legitimately questioning my purpose. I've made billions, heck, trillions of shitty mistakes due to my inability to understand things. I might have average writing skills, but trust me, I lack common sense and have a poor understanding of how things work)

Sorry for the long wait!

Here I am again after a long while >.< I really need to get rid of this procrastinating habit of mine which conveniently "levels up" due to over-accumulation of experience points (and also my gaming habits that are getting pretty terrible) So there you have it. I really need to post those pics up soon. SOON. SOON!


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This is just a quick post so that my blog doesn't have to suffer constipation. LOL.

TBH its been a pretty rough few weeks with patient work and it is also frustrating. I'll be honest and say that I am extremely dissatisfied with my current social life as well as my relationships with everyone around me as well. I don't know exactly why I'm all prickles and stings, but that's not what people want to read in a blog.
I am well aware that I should be satisifed with my lot in life, since there are people out there who have it worse than me. But, look. Its not like I am ungrateful or anything. I'm just me. With my own problems to deal with.


UNITE BIPOLARIANS!!!


P.S: This is such a boring blog. I'm soooo sorry.

Signing off for tonight until my mood improves.

Bad timings, all of it.

Woah time has been flying by so quickly I can't figure out where its all gone!
Anyway, my camera has been misbehaving so I don't think the photos will be up anytime soon, my sincerest apologies, though I will put them up immediately after my exams for the next two weeks. Chinese new year was great and I did have a lot of fun, apart from nosey relatives but that happens everywhere doesn't it?

Have been doing a bit of light reading these few days, digging into PG Wodehouse's Very Good, Jeeves, which was a brilliant bit of work and I absolutely loved the English. It kinda gives a good feel to the book and its completely different from the other novels that I have read. Looking forward to more of his book and am currently reading Blandings Castle (or something of the sort) also by the same author and gonna start on Mulliner Nights pretty soon!

Just popped in for a quick update and I PROMISE to update more often but being the lazy person I am, I guess I'll need a lot more probing and pushing to get the blogs posted.

On another note, I have been getting countless compliments on the clothes which I have bought online from Irenelim.com and am the proud owner of the clothes which others have requested me to buy for them. :)

Back to studies for a quick run-through:

I've got theory exams the next few weeks starting off with :

1. Periodontics
2. Oral Medicine and Radiology
3. Orthodontics
4. Pedodontics
5. Community Dentistry

Wish me and pray 4 me coz I haven't had the time to settle down to study properly and need all the luck I can get! Thanks and signing off FTM! <3